OK i've put quite a bit of thought into this. I catch myself a lot, calling you out when something bothers you...trust me..I know when it does...and part of me (the sick part) just feels like having you explain yourself just so I can give you my opinion..because most of the time the reasons you say it bothers you are not really facts...they are more your own insecurities. Just a few situations that happen time and time again that put you in a state of constant and almost serious depression and guilt about the way you think you look, that really do more damage to yourself because of the strain it puts on the relationship rather than making you feel better due to the reassurance from me:
A word or idea that goes unnoticed. (mainly the word or idea is twisted and turned to what you think it means...though I have to admit I am guilty of it also)
A beautiful and seemingly confident girl who you catch eye me.
Any talk about how sweet, cute, smart, Etc.. one of my ex-gfs or female friends are.
My reminiscing of the fun times I've had with female friends or exes or crushes I once had. ( You do it too! )
Any girl of my type ( or what you think my type would be- and of course, that's solely based upon what media feels "our" types should be) walking past looking good while you feel your wearing some old jeans and throw away shirt or blouse..looking rough .....fun times.
Or how about spending free time looking through photos of past girlfriends or flings..comparing yourself to them and accusing me of that being what I want.
Stop comparing yourself with my past. There's a reason my exes are exes. If I wanted one of them over you....you would be the ex and she would be in my arms here in the present!
If you weren't the one I wanted I wouldn't
Hold doors open for you everywhere we went,
Look at you with those deep eyes every few minutes.
Randomly grab your hand and hold on tightly.
Wipe your tears away when you finally break down about how shitty your day is going then hug you tightly and hold you when I know you need attention and
re-assure you over and over how much you mean to me.
Think of you all day, everyday. Especially when you aren't around.
Talk about you to anyone who will listen. Telling them how happy I am or sometimes how much you hurt me, how beautiful and sexy you are. Even when you aren't around to hear it.
Worry about you constantly. Asking if you are okay when you squirm and have a look of pain on your face from the occasional cramp or stomach ache. Give you a neck rub when I see you rubbing it after sitting at your computer for hours on end. Get you a glass of cold water and advil when you have a bad headache before you go to bed.
I trust you and have nothing to hide so you have access to all of my stuff. I tell you when i'm chatting with a girl (friend or foe, ex or former crush). I tell you what's been said, and if it's on the phone even put her on speaker if I see you are looking rather annoyed.
I always makes sure you are taken care of for work in the morning.. lunch, etc . Even going as far as scolding you if you start down a self-destructive path. I won't hurt you. I won't let anyone else hurt you. And mostly, I won't even let you hurt yourself.
Girl, You don't see that this boy loves you?
Take it in, relish it, own it, and most of all....don't ruin it. Be open with your thoughts and fears. Work things out. Don't throw in the towel based on your own insecurities.
You are the light at the end of my tunnel, my baby, my sweetie, my girl.
You are beautiful, smart, funny, sexy, fun, and perfect for me.
Live It. Be It. Love It
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